STORY #57

20092009

20th September 2009

Finally, you are mine :)

i love you ahmad shahir,

with love,

airinna

STORY #56

OHMYGOD ! Facebook knows me :s

Airinna completed the quiz "What does the week you were born say about you?" with the result The Week of Spirit - Pisces 1 February 23 – March 2.
You value the nonmaterial side of life. You enjoy the pleasures of table and bed. You have a blend of spiritual and sensual approach to life. You are lively and entertaining. Health is important to you. You have a strong desire to do good and better your surroundings. You can be devotional and service oriented, you are big hearted and give freely to others, which sometimes get you into trouble from more selfish individuals. You feel hurt when others do not meet your high standards of friendship. You wear your heart on your sleeve. Your know it all attitude is sometimes difficult for others to handle. You enjoy sharing at a deep level with your friends and family. You can be emotionally unstable in love relationships and changing partners can become a way of life for you. You can be a lot to handle and make demands that are suffocating to others, you can be jealous and possessive even though you insist you can handle an ‘open’ relationship.

Strengths: Spiritual – Sensual – Transparent

Weaknesses: Emotional – Irresponsible - Catastrophic .

with love,
airinna

STORY #55

Dreams and fantasies come together in our mind,
Hoping for that special someone to appear,
Waiting and waiting,
Hearts start to break,
Thoughts run through our mind,
Wondering if we were good enough,
Finally the day has come,
Realizing that every second was worth the wait.

with love,
airinna

STORY #54

I am so outdated, i haven't watched Gossip Girl Season 1 yet :( YIKES ! I probably should go and borrow the DVD from Mr Aarif Ibrahim.

Then, i can drool over these beautiful boys, haha.

with love,

airinna

STORY #53

It's Me Not You

I don't know what to do. I feel the urge to scream my heart out to get your attention. What more do i have to do?The pain is slowly spreading making me feel numb. This isn't something i like to feel. I do understand your position,but its just hard for me to accept reality. Perhaps i am just expecting to much? I guess i am. Please take away this uncomfortable feeling, i don't want to feel like this over some petty little thing.

I know myself too well, i am resisting something. Something im always doing to keep myself protected from any form of heartache. But, i don't want to do the same with you. You deserve everything i have to offer and my guards are down for you and only you.I am willing to face anything that comes my way no matter how much it hurts, this is just something i have to learn. Not to block out all feelings just because i'm scared of getting hurt. Letting people in is another tough challenge for me. As much as i avoid letting people in, i know i can't hide forever -__-

I wish there was a guidebook on life. I think parents should write a book and when their babies are born they should say 'Hello honey, welcome to the world. here's your guidebook on life. Just follow what the book says and everything will be just fine'.I find the thought of that ammusing because it will never happen :D

with love,
airinna

STORY #52

When good girl meets bad boy

Anything can happen baby :)

with love,

airinna

STORY #51

THE START OF SOMETHING NEW

5 years you waited for me. It amazes me because you held on for so long eventhough things were tough. I took a risk, i opened up to you these past few weeks. Eventhough you know me inside out, there was always a side of me i was afraid to show you or anyone else. My vulnerable side, a side i choose to hide from getting hurt. I trust you, im letting you in completely now. I am now happy :)

20 August 2009

with love,
airinna

STORY #50

i am finally at peace. I don't remember the last time I felt this peaceful. After months of heartaches, finally i've seen a glimpse of something good. Eventhough it took almost 8 months for me to be at peace, i finally am. This time, i really hope it will last. I deserve it. What a great 50th post :) No emo post. Haha

with love,
airinna

STORY #49

I have all these hopes and dreams about my life,

Every little detail engraved in my mind,

I know what i want,

Everythings all planned out just how i imagined things would be.

That perfect life i want to have.

I realized that everything can't be perfect or the way i want it to be. Then, it struck me. Maybe things aren't the way i wanted because i expect too much while life is unexpected. Life is full of suprises. I use to hate suprises but not anymore. I've learnt that suprises are a good thing, it keeps you entertained. I can honestly admit that i have been living under a rock. Im very timid, im too afraid of the world. I just be more confident with myself. Easier said, believing in myself. It has taken me such a long time to finally get the idea of me being too afraid of what people think and too shy is just holding me back. I have a lot too offer. Finally, i decided to listen what Shahir had to say and he was right about me. I dont know why it took me this long to realise, i guess i just didn't want to accept the fact about myself. He taught me to be more open, i shouldn't keep things to myself. It's better to share and i shouldn't be soo scared to let people know what im feeling. I shouldn't pretend. I shouldn't care what people think of me either.

Shahir if you happen to read this, i want to thank you for always being there for me. You have been an amazing friend despite the arguements and all. You kept on being there. You've been an amazing friend and you have taught me so much. I might not be the best friend you ever had with all my fust. After what you said the other night, im going to change. Im admitting that i have to change for the betterYou were right. Because of you, i am who i am today. You bring out the best in me, So, thank you and im sorry for being so difficult. Ily :)

with love,

airinna

STORY #48

These past few months i thought i was fine. Deep down i was just empty, trying to deny every heartache. Nothing good has happened to me this year, everything just rips me apart. Having somebody who cares so much about you and always there for you is amazing but how can that someone hurt you so much making you cry after months of not crying. It comes a time to move one from people like that. The time has come but i just can't do it. Deep down he means a lot to me. He has always been there for me. How can i walk away from someone who cares that much about me? NO guy has cared that much about me. Why must he hurt me so badly if he cared that much? I need to let go but i just can't. I will practically have no one. I won't have anyone to turn to leaving me feeling even worse that no one cares. Should i just continue this friendship eventhough it hurts or should i move on? I can't leave but i knw i should.

with love,
airinna

STORY #47

Everything is total bullshit.

with love,
airinna

STORY #46

RM0.20 PLKN : Tahniah ! 920224-14-**** AIRINNA BINTI HASNUL BAHRI terpilih menyertai PLKN Siri 7/2010.

Airinna is selected for national services. This should be fun. haha.

with love,
airinna

STORY #45

TRANSFORMER : REVENGE OF THE FALLEN

was ah-meh-zing ! It was really really really good. I love the twin robots and wheelie, they're funny :) but i have no favourites. Hahaha

with love,

airinna

STORY #44

BREAKING NEWS

A great legend was lost. Leaving people in every corner of the earth in tears. People are united paying tributes to the king of pop. It was a sudden death, no one knew it was coming. A total shock to his beloved fans. A pretty face with wicked dancing and great singing was an idol to many. He will forever be remembered. Rest in peace, Michael Jackson.

with love,
airinna

STORY #43

im just a little caught in the middle,

life is a maze, love is a riddle,

i dnt knw where to go, can't do it alone,

i've tried, i dnt knw why

slow it down, make it stop,

or else my heart is going to pop !

the show by lenka

STORY #41

MSSM 2009

Spending 11 days in Kuching, Sawarak with the Selangor team was a total roller-coaster ride. It had it's memorable moments and it's crappy moments. I'm going to miss mssm. It's been 7 years since I started playing. That was the end of my tennis career. Im going to miss all my friends, but i'll be seeing them soon :) *fingers crossed*

with love,
airinna

STORY #40

You are important to me, you're my best friend. I may not show it but you should know that I do care. I have a lot to say but I choose not too because it hasn't really made any difference. You tell me to tell you how I feel and when I don't you say that you don't know me but when I do, you'll start scolding me and act as if you're the sad, unhappy one while I was the one who told you how I feel. Don't my feelings matter? I don't have a rock heart, I can only hold on to a certain limit and I am about to break. I have every right to be mad because you lied and you played around with me to see how much I care? If you really care for someone you can actually see it without the person showing it clearly. I really don't know wht i'm suppose to do. Everything I do is wrong, nothings ever good enough. I really don't know how to express my feelings and this is the only way I know how. Who cares, nobody reads this shit pun.

with love,
airinna

STORY #39

HIGH SCHOOL DRAMA

Today was suppose to be aarif's suprise party, everything was almost perfect. Except for the part where you came earlier than zeza, miera and elyn. It was going to be an awesome day but somehow everybody got caught up with the dramas going on. It was crazeyhhh ! I swear, i really didnt knw what to do. Drama drama drama. Don't people get tired if it? It's takes so much out of you. When will it stop? What a stupid question to ask. My guts says NEVER. No one wants to be wrong. People seem to take life as a competition. They have to be the greatest friend by doing impressive things. You can't buy friends, you have to earn them. Maybe everybody should learn the meaning of friendship. Even me. Tomorrow is going to be a long daaaaay. Haihhhh.

with love,
airinna

STORY #38

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AARIF IBRAHIM :D

I was suppose to do this blog yesterday but i was totally tired. Sorry : Oh well, it's not like you're gonna read it pun. Haha. I met you in form 2. Back then you had the mushroom hairstyle -__- i will NEVER EVER EVER forget that. We've been close ever since. And it's been fun, don't you agree? I know you don't need you to answer and i already know. How cool is that? Haha, Anyway, i love you to death yemmy yem makan yam ! :D

Hope you had a great one seven !

with love,

airinna

STORY #37

Isn't he just ADORABLE ? :)

We saw him running around in Jalan Duta and we just couldn't resist. Haha

with love, airinna