STORY #40

You are important to me, you're my best friend. I may not show it but you should know that I do care. I have a lot to say but I choose not too because it hasn't really made any difference. You tell me to tell you how I feel and when I don't you say that you don't know me but when I do, you'll start scolding me and act as if you're the sad, unhappy one while I was the one who told you how I feel. Don't my feelings matter? I don't have a rock heart, I can only hold on to a certain limit and I am about to break. I have every right to be mad because you lied and you played around with me to see how much I care? If you really care for someone you can actually see it without the person showing it clearly. I really don't know wht i'm suppose to do. Everything I do is wrong, nothings ever good enough. I really don't know how to express my feelings and this is the only way I know how. Who cares, nobody reads this shit pun.

with love,
airinna

STORY #39

HIGH SCHOOL DRAMA

Today was suppose to be aarif's suprise party, everything was almost perfect. Except for the part where you came earlier than zeza, miera and elyn. It was going to be an awesome day but somehow everybody got caught up with the dramas going on. It was crazeyhhh ! I swear, i really didnt knw what to do. Drama drama drama. Don't people get tired if it? It's takes so much out of you. When will it stop? What a stupid question to ask. My guts says NEVER. No one wants to be wrong. People seem to take life as a competition. They have to be the greatest friend by doing impressive things. You can't buy friends, you have to earn them. Maybe everybody should learn the meaning of friendship. Even me. Tomorrow is going to be a long daaaaay. Haihhhh.

with love,
airinna

STORY #38

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AARIF IBRAHIM :D

I was suppose to do this blog yesterday but i was totally tired. Sorry : Oh well, it's not like you're gonna read it pun. Haha. I met you in form 2. Back then you had the mushroom hairstyle -__- i will NEVER EVER EVER forget that. We've been close ever since. And it's been fun, don't you agree? I know you don't need you to answer and i already know. How cool is that? Haha, Anyway, i love you to death yemmy yem makan yam ! :D

Hope you had a great one seven !

with love,

airinna

STORY #37

Isn't he just ADORABLE ? :)

We saw him running around in Jalan Duta and we just couldn't resist. Haha

with love, airinna

STORY #36

I don't care if you don't want to talk to me or you want to talk bad about me. I'd rather you not talk to me at all if you're gonna treat me like crap. Right now, you wanna talk to me. Then you talk and if you don't, you don't. Going through hell because i'm too afraid of losing people is not worth it. It's been a tough month and im simply done. I lost ever bit of self confidence i have whch is very minimal. Feeling like you don't matter, you're never good enough and not being able to feel anything. My god, does that suck? I can't even cry : we all know what a cryer i am. Haha. Friends come and go, that's just how things work. People change as we grow older. I don't hold grudges and neither should you. Every mistake i made, shouldn't i be forgiven? As far as im concern i did not make a big mistake with you. Maybe little ones, here and there. But, come on ! We're only human. Forgive and forget is the term.

with love,
airinna

STORY #35

ANSWERS

I have so many unanswered questions. It has been bugging me for months. I wished you can just answer them. I've moved forward but at times my heart keeps on reminding me that I have unfinished business. The more i try to move forward, the more it reminds me that I don't have the answers i want.I dont care anymore, you can do whatever you want with your life because the spell you had on me has worn off. All I want are answers and nothing more. I just want to close that chapter of my life and I won't be able to without your help. Help me out here. You owe me atleast that.

with love,
airinna

STORY #34

CHANGE

Yeah sure. I've changed. I'm not all naive and gullible. Easier said, im growing up. Ofcourse im not the same person I used to be. People learn from certain events that happened in their life that opens their eyes. As for me, the last incident that happened had shown me so much. It has changed me for the better. You might not think so because you'll like the old me better. The girl who believes everything you say, who thinks life has a happy ending and all. I am not that girl. I am out of my lala land, im in reality now. You can't be mad at me because i've changed into someone more realistic rather than all fantasies. So what if you don't like me. It's not going to kill me. You'll change eventually, then you'll understand.

with love,
airinna