STORY #49

I have all these hopes and dreams about my life,

Every little detail engraved in my mind,

I know what i want,

Everythings all planned out just how i imagined things would be.

That perfect life i want to have.

I realized that everything can't be perfect or the way i want it to be. Then, it struck me. Maybe things aren't the way i wanted because i expect too much while life is unexpected. Life is full of suprises. I use to hate suprises but not anymore. I've learnt that suprises are a good thing, it keeps you entertained. I can honestly admit that i have been living under a rock. Im very timid, im too afraid of the world. I just be more confident with myself. Easier said, believing in myself. It has taken me such a long time to finally get the idea of me being too afraid of what people think and too shy is just holding me back. I have a lot too offer. Finally, i decided to listen what Shahir had to say and he was right about me. I dont know why it took me this long to realise, i guess i just didn't want to accept the fact about myself. He taught me to be more open, i shouldn't keep things to myself. It's better to share and i shouldn't be soo scared to let people know what im feeling. I shouldn't pretend. I shouldn't care what people think of me either.

Shahir if you happen to read this, i want to thank you for always being there for me. You have been an amazing friend despite the arguements and all. You kept on being there. You've been an amazing friend and you have taught me so much. I might not be the best friend you ever had with all my fust. After what you said the other night, im going to change. Im admitting that i have to change for the betterYou were right. Because of you, i am who i am today. You bring out the best in me, So, thank you and im sorry for being so difficult. Ily :)

with love,

airinna

STORY #48

These past few months i thought i was fine. Deep down i was just empty, trying to deny every heartache. Nothing good has happened to me this year, everything just rips me apart. Having somebody who cares so much about you and always there for you is amazing but how can that someone hurt you so much making you cry after months of not crying. It comes a time to move one from people like that. The time has come but i just can't do it. Deep down he means a lot to me. He has always been there for me. How can i walk away from someone who cares that much about me? NO guy has cared that much about me. Why must he hurt me so badly if he cared that much? I need to let go but i just can't. I will practically have no one. I won't have anyone to turn to leaving me feeling even worse that no one cares. Should i just continue this friendship eventhough it hurts or should i move on? I can't leave but i knw i should.

with love,
airinna

STORY #47

Everything is total bullshit.

with love,
airinna