STORY #57

20092009

20th September 2009

Finally, you are mine :)

i love you ahmad shahir,

with love,

airinna

STORY #56

OHMYGOD ! Facebook knows me :s

Airinna completed the quiz "What does the week you were born say about you?" with the result The Week of Spirit - Pisces 1 February 23 – March 2.
You value the nonmaterial side of life. You enjoy the pleasures of table and bed. You have a blend of spiritual and sensual approach to life. You are lively and entertaining. Health is important to you. You have a strong desire to do good and better your surroundings. You can be devotional and service oriented, you are big hearted and give freely to others, which sometimes get you into trouble from more selfish individuals. You feel hurt when others do not meet your high standards of friendship. You wear your heart on your sleeve. Your know it all attitude is sometimes difficult for others to handle. You enjoy sharing at a deep level with your friends and family. You can be emotionally unstable in love relationships and changing partners can become a way of life for you. You can be a lot to handle and make demands that are suffocating to others, you can be jealous and possessive even though you insist you can handle an ‘open’ relationship.

Strengths: Spiritual – Sensual – Transparent

Weaknesses: Emotional – Irresponsible - Catastrophic .

with love,
airinna

STORY #55

Dreams and fantasies come together in our mind,
Hoping for that special someone to appear,
Waiting and waiting,
Hearts start to break,
Thoughts run through our mind,
Wondering if we were good enough,
Finally the day has come,
Realizing that every second was worth the wait.

with love,
airinna

STORY #54

I am so outdated, i haven't watched Gossip Girl Season 1 yet :( YIKES ! I probably should go and borrow the DVD from Mr Aarif Ibrahim.

Then, i can drool over these beautiful boys, haha.

with love,

airinna

STORY #53

It's Me Not You

I don't know what to do. I feel the urge to scream my heart out to get your attention. What more do i have to do?The pain is slowly spreading making me feel numb. This isn't something i like to feel. I do understand your position,but its just hard for me to accept reality. Perhaps i am just expecting to much? I guess i am. Please take away this uncomfortable feeling, i don't want to feel like this over some petty little thing.

I know myself too well, i am resisting something. Something im always doing to keep myself protected from any form of heartache. But, i don't want to do the same with you. You deserve everything i have to offer and my guards are down for you and only you.I am willing to face anything that comes my way no matter how much it hurts, this is just something i have to learn. Not to block out all feelings just because i'm scared of getting hurt. Letting people in is another tough challenge for me. As much as i avoid letting people in, i know i can't hide forever -__-

I wish there was a guidebook on life. I think parents should write a book and when their babies are born they should say 'Hello honey, welcome to the world. here's your guidebook on life. Just follow what the book says and everything will be just fine'.I find the thought of that ammusing because it will never happen :D

with love,
airinna

STORY #52

When good girl meets bad boy

Anything can happen baby :)

with love,

airinna

STORY #51

THE START OF SOMETHING NEW

5 years you waited for me. It amazes me because you held on for so long eventhough things were tough. I took a risk, i opened up to you these past few weeks. Eventhough you know me inside out, there was always a side of me i was afraid to show you or anyone else. My vulnerable side, a side i choose to hide from getting hurt. I trust you, im letting you in completely now. I am now happy :)

20 August 2009

with love,
airinna

STORY #50

i am finally at peace. I don't remember the last time I felt this peaceful. After months of heartaches, finally i've seen a glimpse of something good. Eventhough it took almost 8 months for me to be at peace, i finally am. This time, i really hope it will last. I deserve it. What a great 50th post :) No emo post. Haha

with love,
airinna

STORY #49

I have all these hopes and dreams about my life,

Every little detail engraved in my mind,

I know what i want,

Everythings all planned out just how i imagined things would be.

That perfect life i want to have.

I realized that everything can't be perfect or the way i want it to be. Then, it struck me. Maybe things aren't the way i wanted because i expect too much while life is unexpected. Life is full of suprises. I use to hate suprises but not anymore. I've learnt that suprises are a good thing, it keeps you entertained. I can honestly admit that i have been living under a rock. Im very timid, im too afraid of the world. I just be more confident with myself. Easier said, believing in myself. It has taken me such a long time to finally get the idea of me being too afraid of what people think and too shy is just holding me back. I have a lot too offer. Finally, i decided to listen what Shahir had to say and he was right about me. I dont know why it took me this long to realise, i guess i just didn't want to accept the fact about myself. He taught me to be more open, i shouldn't keep things to myself. It's better to share and i shouldn't be soo scared to let people know what im feeling. I shouldn't pretend. I shouldn't care what people think of me either.

Shahir if you happen to read this, i want to thank you for always being there for me. You have been an amazing friend despite the arguements and all. You kept on being there. You've been an amazing friend and you have taught me so much. I might not be the best friend you ever had with all my fust. After what you said the other night, im going to change. Im admitting that i have to change for the betterYou were right. Because of you, i am who i am today. You bring out the best in me, So, thank you and im sorry for being so difficult. Ily :)

with love,

airinna

STORY #48

These past few months i thought i was fine. Deep down i was just empty, trying to deny every heartache. Nothing good has happened to me this year, everything just rips me apart. Having somebody who cares so much about you and always there for you is amazing but how can that someone hurt you so much making you cry after months of not crying. It comes a time to move one from people like that. The time has come but i just can't do it. Deep down he means a lot to me. He has always been there for me. How can i walk away from someone who cares that much about me? NO guy has cared that much about me. Why must he hurt me so badly if he cared that much? I need to let go but i just can't. I will practically have no one. I won't have anyone to turn to leaving me feeling even worse that no one cares. Should i just continue this friendship eventhough it hurts or should i move on? I can't leave but i knw i should.

with love,
airinna

STORY #47

Everything is total bullshit.

with love,
airinna

STORY #46

RM0.20 PLKN : Tahniah ! 920224-14-**** AIRINNA BINTI HASNUL BAHRI terpilih menyertai PLKN Siri 7/2010.

Airinna is selected for national services. This should be fun. haha.

with love,
airinna

STORY #45

TRANSFORMER : REVENGE OF THE FALLEN

was ah-meh-zing ! It was really really really good. I love the twin robots and wheelie, they're funny :) but i have no favourites. Hahaha

with love,

airinna

STORY #44

BREAKING NEWS

A great legend was lost. Leaving people in every corner of the earth in tears. People are united paying tributes to the king of pop. It was a sudden death, no one knew it was coming. A total shock to his beloved fans. A pretty face with wicked dancing and great singing was an idol to many. He will forever be remembered. Rest in peace, Michael Jackson.

with love,
airinna

STORY #43

im just a little caught in the middle,

life is a maze, love is a riddle,

i dnt knw where to go, can't do it alone,

i've tried, i dnt knw why

slow it down, make it stop,

or else my heart is going to pop !

the show by lenka

STORY #41

MSSM 2009

Spending 11 days in Kuching, Sawarak with the Selangor team was a total roller-coaster ride. It had it's memorable moments and it's crappy moments. I'm going to miss mssm. It's been 7 years since I started playing. That was the end of my tennis career. Im going to miss all my friends, but i'll be seeing them soon :) *fingers crossed*

with love,
airinna

STORY #40

You are important to me, you're my best friend. I may not show it but you should know that I do care. I have a lot to say but I choose not too because it hasn't really made any difference. You tell me to tell you how I feel and when I don't you say that you don't know me but when I do, you'll start scolding me and act as if you're the sad, unhappy one while I was the one who told you how I feel. Don't my feelings matter? I don't have a rock heart, I can only hold on to a certain limit and I am about to break. I have every right to be mad because you lied and you played around with me to see how much I care? If you really care for someone you can actually see it without the person showing it clearly. I really don't know wht i'm suppose to do. Everything I do is wrong, nothings ever good enough. I really don't know how to express my feelings and this is the only way I know how. Who cares, nobody reads this shit pun.

with love,
airinna

STORY #39

HIGH SCHOOL DRAMA

Today was suppose to be aarif's suprise party, everything was almost perfect. Except for the part where you came earlier than zeza, miera and elyn. It was going to be an awesome day but somehow everybody got caught up with the dramas going on. It was crazeyhhh ! I swear, i really didnt knw what to do. Drama drama drama. Don't people get tired if it? It's takes so much out of you. When will it stop? What a stupid question to ask. My guts says NEVER. No one wants to be wrong. People seem to take life as a competition. They have to be the greatest friend by doing impressive things. You can't buy friends, you have to earn them. Maybe everybody should learn the meaning of friendship. Even me. Tomorrow is going to be a long daaaaay. Haihhhh.

with love,
airinna

STORY #38

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AARIF IBRAHIM :D

I was suppose to do this blog yesterday but i was totally tired. Sorry : Oh well, it's not like you're gonna read it pun. Haha. I met you in form 2. Back then you had the mushroom hairstyle -__- i will NEVER EVER EVER forget that. We've been close ever since. And it's been fun, don't you agree? I know you don't need you to answer and i already know. How cool is that? Haha, Anyway, i love you to death yemmy yem makan yam ! :D

Hope you had a great one seven !

with love,

airinna

STORY #37

Isn't he just ADORABLE ? :)

We saw him running around in Jalan Duta and we just couldn't resist. Haha

with love, airinna

STORY #36

I don't care if you don't want to talk to me or you want to talk bad about me. I'd rather you not talk to me at all if you're gonna treat me like crap. Right now, you wanna talk to me. Then you talk and if you don't, you don't. Going through hell because i'm too afraid of losing people is not worth it. It's been a tough month and im simply done. I lost ever bit of self confidence i have whch is very minimal. Feeling like you don't matter, you're never good enough and not being able to feel anything. My god, does that suck? I can't even cry : we all know what a cryer i am. Haha. Friends come and go, that's just how things work. People change as we grow older. I don't hold grudges and neither should you. Every mistake i made, shouldn't i be forgiven? As far as im concern i did not make a big mistake with you. Maybe little ones, here and there. But, come on ! We're only human. Forgive and forget is the term.

with love,
airinna

STORY #35

ANSWERS

I have so many unanswered questions. It has been bugging me for months. I wished you can just answer them. I've moved forward but at times my heart keeps on reminding me that I have unfinished business. The more i try to move forward, the more it reminds me that I don't have the answers i want.I dont care anymore, you can do whatever you want with your life because the spell you had on me has worn off. All I want are answers and nothing more. I just want to close that chapter of my life and I won't be able to without your help. Help me out here. You owe me atleast that.

with love,
airinna

STORY #34

CHANGE

Yeah sure. I've changed. I'm not all naive and gullible. Easier said, im growing up. Ofcourse im not the same person I used to be. People learn from certain events that happened in their life that opens their eyes. As for me, the last incident that happened had shown me so much. It has changed me for the better. You might not think so because you'll like the old me better. The girl who believes everything you say, who thinks life has a happy ending and all. I am not that girl. I am out of my lala land, im in reality now. You can't be mad at me because i've changed into someone more realistic rather than all fantasies. So what if you don't like me. It's not going to kill me. You'll change eventually, then you'll understand.

with love,
airinna

STORY #33

BEST FRIENDS

What does it mean? I was a true believer but day by day I don't seem to believe in it. I know all best friends fight but it shouldn't be because of a little thing. Your best friend is practically the only person that can be completety honest with you without hurting your feelings. All best friends are suppose to tell you the truth because your friends woud just sugarcoat things to make you feel better. As for me, i do not like to sugarcoat things. I like the truth, i like honesty. I'll say things the way it is, i'll give you my opinion but even if you don't like it i'd rather keep my mouth shut rather than sugarcoat things. Oh, come on. You need honest people in your life or you'll never grow up because you've been living in this perfect little world of yours. I'm not harsh when I tell the truth, im good at arranging my sentences. So, no worries :)

with love,
airinna

STORY #32

SYSTEM LOCKDOWN

I haven't posted anything on my blog in a really really long time. that's because I have nothing important going on with my life. Everyday is just like every other day. I am feelingless right now, i don't feel anything. I would just laugh at anything. It's hard for me to believe anything people say. I don't trust anyone anymore. I can't seem to let anyone in. I hate the fact that anything nice that comes out from anybody's mouth seems like total bullshit to me. What has happened to me? This is not me. Im suffering from a system lockdown disease. Haha? People say i should not let myself be this way. The thing is, I don't choose to be this way. It just happened. Im sorry, if I offended anybody. I surely didn't mean to :(

with love,
airinna

STORY #31

24.02.2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIRINNA ! I'm finally 17 :) I can definitely get my lisence. Eventhough my birthday wasn't much but i had a great day. I did not expect to enjoy myself that much. Due to exams and back to back tuition but i had a great time with my family. I love youuuuuuu :) Its sad that my birthday is coming to an end.

Little Miss Star Princess -__-

with love,

airinna

STORY #30

Black & White

My life is as black and white as the pictureee. I need to be filled with colour. So filled, as if colours were literally bursting out of me. I need excitement and adventure !
Someone, paint my world with colours. But who is that that special someone that will paint my life as if it was a masterpiece? Who will be the person to help my friends complete this masterpiece? Time will tell. As for now, i am slowly painting my world with colours and i can say that i am proud of myself. I've grown quite a bit. I see a change in me that i am happy with. I am stronger, i am more confident and i am starting to believe in myself. Maybe it's just a little bit, but it's a start.

with love,
airinna

STORY #29

Meet my sister, Ezlin Deanna Bt Hasnul Bahri. She's coming back in june. YAYYYYY ! I can get her to buy me stuff :) We're completely different in every single way. Maybe we are alike in a tiny way? Ahhh, who cares. Womaaaaaan, that's my umbrella you're holding there. Oh yeah, i have it now ! Btw, you'll be sleeping in the toilet when you come back because i'm sleeping in your room now and my old room is now a store. SO, tough luck -__- Oh, Rikki can have the couch but the toilet will be your bedroom. So, be prepare big sis. This is how bored i am until i am writing a blog about my sister. Watefudgeee yo ! I so need a life -.-" Toodles !

with love,
airinna

STORY #28

EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE

I am soo done trying to make nice. It's not like he's any nicer to me. He seems to treat everyone else nicely but when it comes to me, he treats me like shitzzzzz. Ahhh, to hell with you ! I hope you feel every pain you caused me, i hope you suffer in guilt after what you've done to me. I am done pretending everythings okaaaay when i am freaking mad at you for being such an ass. Im not gonna look for you anymore, as i don't owe you anything. It's you who owe me. God, i don't know why i even careeeee. I'm moving forward and not caring if you even look my way, because you are not worth my time. I'll talk when you look for me. Til the day comes, i wish you well and take caree.

with love,
airinna

STORY #27

14.02.2009

I spent my valentins in school. That's didot, she's awesome.

She got my daim chocolates filled into a purple transparent wraper with a red paper saying airinna, ily =). Isn't she just a sweetheart? Tiqo gave me a cupcake with BLUE icing ! Don't we like blue icing tiqo? haha. I like yellow icing too. Blue and yellow icing, only on cupcakes :D Alyssa gave me 2 heart chocolates in a golden box. Man, those chocolate wrappers was so cantik. haha. Can't believe im impressed by wrappers. Well, believe it ! I fancy pretty shiny chocolate wrappers -__- I spent my afternoon at lydia's. Which was great, i wanted to upload some pictures at her house but my stupid memory card reader just don't want to work. DAMN YOU MEMORY CARD READER ! See, valentines day can be awesome even if you don't have that special someone. It's not the end of the world. There are lots of love around youu :) Oh, i forgot. Didot got strucked by cupid's arrow. It's sooo cute, i am not kidding. I envy youuuu ! *kidding* haha. You deserve the happiness after all the shit you've been through. GOOOOO DIDOT ! I am soo proud of you, be careful honey :) I don't want to see you all heart broken and hurt.

with love,

airinna

STORY #26

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAAAAAY :)

Enjoy it with your loved ones, as for me it will be spent with my friends and family. As usual.
YAAAAAY ! -__- damn, i didn't do or get anything for anybody this valentines. haihhhh. Sorry guys :(

with love,
airinna

STORY #25

FRIDAY NIGHT

YOU STUUUUUUPID CHRIS BROWN ! YOU SPOILED MY NIGHT. GRRRRR. Nobody likes you anymore. * i think* and, i think there's a group Anti Chris Brown :p. You may never knwwwww. haha

with love,
airinna

STORY #24

SATURDAY

Bloody hell i have a boring lifeee. haha. Im going to Rihanna baby :D *happy dance* The other day at Pavilion, there was this handsome boyyyyy, my god was he a hunk -___- tak percaya? ask zeza and deedee. They'll tell youu. Finally, my tennis club t-shirts are done and they look pretty darn good. Did i mention that i had to go to this Kem Kepimpinan Pelajar in school last saturday. I had to be there at 7.30. Ameera and deedee payed atteintio like seriously payed attention. Athirah and i just talked the whole time we were there. The teachers were always looking our way because of the noise pollution. Luckyly, graceful voice wasn't all hyper. If not it would have been worse. Sorry sayang :) I just had to say that. haha.

with love,
airinna

STORY #23

Don't laugh, im not very good at these things :(
i have no title for this, dang it. Haha.

Im losing myself,
to compete with everybody else,
to be that one special girl,
that makes your body tingle.

All the girls surrounding you,
so glamorous,
with a pinch of flirt,
and i dont stand a chance,
of winning you.

I tried to change myself,
instead of being me,
trying to impress you,
but you never looked my way.

i finally believed in me,
giving up pretending,
as ordinary and awkward,
you turned and looked my way.

Walking towards me,
with a smile on your face,
saying you've missed seeing me,
just the way i am.

Your eyes sparkled,
it dazzled me,
everything seemed so unreal,
as if i was in a dream.
i pinched myself,
and nothing changed,
you sat there laughing,
at what i just did,
telling me,
i wasn't dreaming,
i am the girl you fell in love with.

DONT JUDGE IT EITHER -___-

with love,
airinna

STORY #22

MAKE LOVE, NOT WAR -___-

World Peace kan Lydia? :)

with love,
airinna

STORY #21

I feel like Wonder Woman right now. hahahaha. Wonder Woman to ze rescueeee. Watefudgeee? Im hyper right now, so it's gonna be one crazy post :D Since it's my last year in school I thought of making a t-shirt for my tennis club in school. My other commitee members just say 'nak nak nak bajuuuu !' and they leave to work to me. Ah well, i enjoy doing these things :) btw, say hello to MISS PRESIDENT yo ! I bought the t-shirts from bossini. Try thinking like this, its hugo boss's cousin with the cheaper price tag on and when you read it in bm it's like boss sini. Haha. You better be laughing :D I figured out a design with the help of my mummy yesterday. I went to the printer today and left for sunway pyramid. I wanted to go ice-skating but the zamboni was doing it's job. So, i went and watch bride wars *GOOD SHOW*. Wen the movie was over, i wanted to skate and here's my conversation with the lady at the counter *ehem ehem*.

airinna : hello, umm. Ice-skating for one please. (aren't i politeeee?)
the lady : sorry miss, there are no available shoes inside.
airinna : DAMN ! *face drops and looks around* Ramainyaa orang tunggu, takpelah. Some
other day then :(

Then i went to eat. Haha. Food is good :) Then i texted aina asking if she was going to tuition and she called, here's how it went.

aina : Hey, im going. You? Where are you?
airinna : Hello, yeah i am. Im at Sunway. You?
aina : SUNWAAAAY? yeahhh. Im already at Ampang eating. Come now, leave now !
airinna : Im leaving soon.
aina : NO, NOOOOOW !
airinna : Alright, alright.

So, i left Sunway and arrived at Ampang at 5. I tried calling Aina a few times and she didn't pick up and i hung around Ampang Point until it was 5.45 and left for tuition. Guess what, she arrived at tuition 5.10. Bagus kan dia? :) I went you told me to come now and i've been here since 5 ! She said 'I just woke up'. I pun okaaay la. That's all that happened today, nothing much. Nothing interesting happen in my life which makes me to crap anything on my blog. Tataaaa, take care :)

with love,
airinna

STORY #20

WHICH ONE IS TRUE?

FEBRUARY = ATTITUDE
Abstract thoughts. Outgoing.Loves reality and abstract.Intelligent and clever. Changing personality.Attractive.Fun to be around with. sexiest out of everyone.A real speed demon.Has more than one best friend. Able to cheer anyone up and make them laugh. Amazing smile. An awesome kisser.Temperamental. Honest.A very good girlfriend/boyfriendand loyal. Determined to reach goals.Lovesfreedom. Rebellious when restricted.Lovesaggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.Gets angry really easily but does not show it.Dislikes unnecessary things.Loves making friendsDaring and stubborn.Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.Loves entertainment and leisure.Romantic on theinside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous.Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.Repost this in 5 mins and you will talk to someonenew and realize that you are a perfect match.

Haha, most of them are pretty true but i want to knw what you think :p

with love,
airinna

STORY #19

APOLOGY

Oh god, i might have been a total screw up with you but you have to understand that i can't give you what you want. I never could and never will. You of all people should understand why because i told you so many times that i can't, i just can't. I would if i could. Even if i forced myself to give you what you want, it won't work. I tried and i was so unhappy and i felt trap. Im sorry, i really am. I wished i could. Maybe you should start thinking futher rather than thinking in a box. Think how hard it is for me or how unhappy i have to be to give you what you want. For the record, i do miss you but im trying to actually start thinking of my happiness because i did sacrifice a lot these psat few years trying to make you happy. I accepted the yelling, the cursing, the hitting, being left alone and literally learn to forget all those things and be the bigger person to make everything okay. Forgetting all those pain is easy for me, i got use to it but it doesn't just go away. From time to time the pain comes back to haunt me. Its too much pain and i can't bare it anymore. You mean the world to me but after all that has happen last year i don't know if i can go through it anymore. That's why i've been distant. It may show that i don't care but i'm actually being careful now. So, i don't care if you want to say f**k you to me or anything because i don't blame you.

IM SO SO SO SO SORRY :(

with love,
airinna

STORY #18

GONG XI FA CAI !

As usual, it was one boring chinese new year. It used to be great, i miss the times when my grandma was around. Chinese New Year would be a bomb ! Days filled with gambling, drunk uncles, loads of money *haha*, spending time at the restaurant(i spent most of my time making my own sundae and watching my uncle make cake in the bakery, i so have a sweet tooth), and those days at the beach flying kites. God, i miss those days :( To be honest, i don't really remember her. Apart from speaking a language i don't understand, she died when I was 6. Wished you were here DUN EI LEEN :(

Have a great New Year, let's go bulls :)

with love,
airinna

STORY #17

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

white flag
by dido

with love,
airinna

STORY #16

I've been soo soo soo busy with school with homework and everything. Yessss, i'm doing my homework. *Suprisingly* haha. Nothing much had happen. I haven't done anything interesting at all. So, i have nothing to write. 2009 is off to a good start, thank god :) ohhh, i did the computer test for my license todaaaaaay and i passed. Haha. Now i have exactly a month to my birthday ! Then it would be hello car :D See, i planned it nicely. I take the computer shit on on the 24th of january and i'm turning 17 on the 24th of february. How cool is that? HAHAHAHA. *lame* Anyway, im'm done crapping for the day. Take careeee :D

with love,
airinna

STORY #15

UPDATE

I haven't updated my blog for ages. School started and i've been busy. Im actually doing my homework :D hahahahahaha. Anyway, im currently in 5 Luhur AGAIN ! There were too many complains and they had to change the classes again. Whatever la, classes don't make any difference. Lately, everything's been great. YAY ME ! Im always giggling and i don't know why. *weird* hmmmm, i have nothing to write. Nothing happened so far. Gila bosaaaaan. Oh well, take careeeeee :)

with love,
airinna

STORY #14

CACAT SCHOOL

First day of school and it sucked. Haihhhh. For all pure science students, their class have been changed. There was 4 classes and 1 of them shared with the reka cipta students. Now, they decided to break the rc students to their own personal class. They only have 14 students ! buduuuuuh : SO, they rombak all 4 pure science classes and arrange us according to alphabetical order not following grades. Pandai kan sekolah melawati? :) Im in 5Sejahtera, i don't know how i'm gonna survive. Those people are freakishly smart. I am so dead. Haha. My class is full of people with names starting from A :D hahaha. Most of the first class students that had to go down to the lower class because of their name, thsy were very very very pissed off. Kesian ohhhh. They went ' We work so hard so we could stay in the top class and now they do this, i am so complaining' One crazy school eh? Whatever laa, i take what i can get. SPM lagi penting then classes :)

with love,
airinna

STORY #13

PROBLEMATIC

Wow, it's been one hell of a holiday. Full of heartache, problems and chaos. Tell me, how is one person suppose to feel when their mother cries and u have to hold her and tell her everythings gonna be alright and deal with all the other problems at the same time? Life really is unfair, isn't it? I was fine these past few days until just now. I guess the hurt she was feeling transfered to me and now i feel a whole lot of pain. I would take all the hurt she feels in a heartbeat. I wish i could. I really do.

with love,
airinna

STORY #12

SENIOR YEAR

Senior year, here i comeeeeee :D This will be my last year in school. Like, OMG ! Time flies really fast, don't they? It makes me sad thinking that it would be my last year because people change and mainly everything changes. Friends are lost in that process. Maybe the fact that changes happens and friends are lost just scares the hell out of me. Maybe that's why im fragile when it comes to friends. But, i'm ready to go through my senior year. I just have to step out of my comfort zone and face changes. Even if i loose friends, i am certain that those girlfriends of mine will remain my girlfriends throughout my life. Well, this is the year that plenty of memories will be created :)

SO, BRING IT ON !

with love,
airinna

STORY #11

BELOVED PHONE

I had another skating lesson today. It wasn't easy but yet still very entertaining. Continued my day with Four Christmases :) That was one crazy family they got there.

I F**king lost my phone :(

I lost everything, every bit of memories before everything went wrong. When things go wrong, they really go wrong don't they? GIVE ME A BREAAAAAAAAK ! What a bloody way to start 2009 eh?

with love,
airinna

STORY #10

HAPPY NEW YEAR !

HAVE AN AWESOME 2009 :)

I spent New Year's Eve at Sunway and it was a total bore. Haha. I was there since 10am because of my skating lesson and btw teacher, my ankle hurts ! damn it. Continued with Bedtime Stories. It was funny, but it wasn't all that great. Walked around window shopping at watched The Day The Earth Stood Still, bosaan gilaa i wanted to sleep -___- Then countdown and thats it. It was a boring day except for the ice-skating part. Haha.

2008 was a rough year, let's just hope 2009 will be better eh?

New Year's Resolutions

1. Study hard for SPM
2. Start praying again
3. Be more positive and more confident
4. Create new memories
5. Make new friends
6. Start taking caring of myself
7. JUST BE HAPPY :)

ada lagi but nanti je lah. I know what i want, that's all that matters :D

with love,
airinna